vulnerability/ˌvʌln(ə)rəˈbɪlɪti/noun
- the quality or state of being exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally.
Sun, 6 Sep 2020
The past few days have had this feeling of, "ok this is not the best right now but this isn't horrible there is still peace, but I need to understand what is going on."
My mind was so caught up on what to do what to do, that I was second-guessing all my actions. I was standing still. But now as I think about it I remember that through both those days, I kept reminding myself that it’s OK; things are what they are don't create pressure.
I see that because my focus was fixed on things that I really couldn't control I didn't even notice how I was controlling what I could. The past two days seem to have been the teachers I needed to gain understanding. I overlooked things because I was so busy looking for things that I forgot about myself, I forgot about I am and the I am in me.
Now:
Reading is a reminder to the understanding that when I stop putting the focus on “me” and go to everything else, things start to seem overwhelming. And why won’t it? I’m trying to take hold of things that aren’t even mine, and losing myself in it.